Delaney slept through the night, and I didnt. I woke up around 4 just thinking about what lay ahead yesterday morning. I got up at 5 and started getting ready.. I cried the entire time. Shawn skyped me to tell me good luck and I cried harder... I cried driving to Ft Eustis, I cried dropping her off, & I cried all the way to school.
Delaney isnt used to being awake before 7 so she slept through the entire ordeal. I called around 10 and checked on her and they said she had been crying but that she was doing good and was actually sleeping at the moment. She took 2 bottles ( I wonder how hard that was ) and they all told me what a sweet baby she is.
I had a doctors appointment right after class so I decided to just leave her there so I could get it done. Well they wound up taking forever so I rescheduled it.. I WAS READY TO GET MY BABY!!! My appointment was in Yorktown and the easiest way to go and get her was to go through the main gate ( I usually go through a side gate because its decal only and they dont do inspections) well in VA you have to have a license plate on the front and on the back... I only have on the back.. SO I go through the main gate and the guy stops me and tells me he cant let me on because I dont have a front plate. WTH. I FREAKED out on him. Well I had to pull over under this white tent and the MP asked why I didnt have a plate.. so I freaked out on him.. I mean SERIOUSLY freaked out. He even asked me why I was being hostile. I told him I just want to pick my baby up. So he walks away and comes back and tells me he is going to have to give me a ticket and Im going to have to go home and get the extra plate before they let me on base..
let me just say there was no way I was driving off of that base without Delaney so I started crying. Thank God the tears were easy yesterday because he felt so bad for me he let me off with a warning and let me on base. I rolled up my window and muttered sucker under my breath. BUT I got my baby! When I walked in she was just waking up and starting to fuss. So I grabbed her and just held on. I almost cried again I was so happy to have her back in my arms! I even ignored the fact that she smelled like another woman ;)
I know this will get easier.. and that its good for both of us and Im only doing this so that Delaney never has to want for anything..but damn if my heart didnt break yesterday. I honestly think daycare is worse than sending Shawn on a deployment.
Well we get to do it again tomorrow.. hopefully I win the next round.
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