Thursday, March 17, 2011
6 weeks!
I can hardly believe it! and it makes me so sad. I have 2 weeks left with my sweet baby before she begins daycare and Im back in school. We had daycare orientation last week... I cried and I didnt even have to leave her there. The facility is really nice and so are the workers but it still doesnt change the fact that ITS NOT ME. For close to 7 hours a day they get to see her smile and listen to her "talk" and just be with her. I dont like it. Not one bit. I tried to ask Shawn if I could just finish school and then stay at home until she starts kindergarten... he didnt like that idea too much. Maybe it would be different if I hadnt stayed home the last 4 years.. BUT on a positive note I had to go up to the school yesterday to get ready to come back and my program director knows Im not ready to come back and leave my sweet pea so she worked it out where I only have 1 class when I go back which means I only have school 2 days a week. I think thats a good start as Delaney and I both get used to this new routine.
Im sure yall have all been watching about the destruction in Japan.. yeah thats where Shawn is. I got a phone call last Friday morning at 5:45 asking if I had heard from Shawn just to be informed he had been hit by an 8.9 earthquake and that a tsunami was 30 minutes away. He is safe at this point. I dont know whats going to happen with that nuclear plant and the radiation. They are on stand-by, so basically they are just waiting for the word to start the search and recovery... basically a body detail. I am trying my hardest not to stress and get worked up and I have been able to talk to him almost every day so it helps.. Its just frustrating as hell that I sent him off in civi's and that this was supposed to a skate deployment and I wouldnt have to worry.. boy was I wrong. Just remember Shawn and the marines and hell, all of Japan in your prayers...
I had my 6 week check up today. Everything is good to go. Im around 20 lbs away from my prepregnancy weight. I have a period about once a year and the doctor said that if when I stop breastfeeding it still doesnt come regularly they want me to come back in and have a bunch of tests done and an ultrasound to see if I have polycystic ovarian syndrome.. But Im not even going to worry about that until the time comes..
Grams & Gramps (Shawns parents) came last weekend and met Delaney for the first time! It was a nice visit and we had a lot of fun! Today Kristen and Steph are coming by and then next weekend Cathy will be here for a week!!!!!!.. and possibly longer! She graduates from surgical school next week and well she put in some applications up here! Shawn and I talked about it and she will live here until he comes home!!! We are so excited!!!
I talked to a friend the other day and he made the comment that he couldnt believe I had a baby that he always thought of me as a party girl.. that struck me hard especially since he has only known me about 2 years. I dont know where Im really going with this but yeah the last few years I have been able to do what I want when I want..but Ive never neglected my responsibilities. When Lynne & George were here ,I tried a little smirnoff thing and spit it out. I poured the rest of it down the sink. Not because it tasted bad but because Im just OVER the whole drinking thing. I honestly havent even thought about drinking and I just dont want to. Im not saying that I will never drink again or that Im gonna turn my nose up to anyone who does, its just not for me anymore. I guess thats what a baby will do for you..and Im proud of myself for it :))
Im not going to give any Delaney updates because I want to save them all for her 2 month update because I know there will be several more to add! She is growing up so fast and she is just so beautiful and sweet! But I will leave yall with some pictures :)
Im sure yall have all been watching about the destruction in Japan.. yeah thats where Shawn is. I got a phone call last Friday morning at 5:45 asking if I had heard from Shawn just to be informed he had been hit by an 8.9 earthquake and that a tsunami was 30 minutes away. He is safe at this point. I dont know whats going to happen with that nuclear plant and the radiation. They are on stand-by, so basically they are just waiting for the word to start the search and recovery... basically a body detail. I am trying my hardest not to stress and get worked up and I have been able to talk to him almost every day so it helps.. Its just frustrating as hell that I sent him off in civi's and that this was supposed to a skate deployment and I wouldnt have to worry.. boy was I wrong. Just remember Shawn and the marines and hell, all of Japan in your prayers...
I had my 6 week check up today. Everything is good to go. Im around 20 lbs away from my prepregnancy weight. I have a period about once a year and the doctor said that if when I stop breastfeeding it still doesnt come regularly they want me to come back in and have a bunch of tests done and an ultrasound to see if I have polycystic ovarian syndrome.. But Im not even going to worry about that until the time comes..
Grams & Gramps (Shawns parents) came last weekend and met Delaney for the first time! It was a nice visit and we had a lot of fun! Today Kristen and Steph are coming by and then next weekend Cathy will be here for a week!!!!!!.. and possibly longer! She graduates from surgical school next week and well she put in some applications up here! Shawn and I talked about it and she will live here until he comes home!!! We are so excited!!!
I talked to a friend the other day and he made the comment that he couldnt believe I had a baby that he always thought of me as a party girl.. that struck me hard especially since he has only known me about 2 years. I dont know where Im really going with this but yeah the last few years I have been able to do what I want when I want..but Ive never neglected my responsibilities. When Lynne & George were here ,I tried a little smirnoff thing and spit it out. I poured the rest of it down the sink. Not because it tasted bad but because Im just OVER the whole drinking thing. I honestly havent even thought about drinking and I just dont want to. Im not saying that I will never drink again or that Im gonna turn my nose up to anyone who does, its just not for me anymore. I guess thats what a baby will do for you..and Im proud of myself for it :))
Im not going to give any Delaney updates because I want to save them all for her 2 month update because I know there will be several more to add! She is growing up so fast and she is just so beautiful and sweet! But I will leave yall with some pictures :)
Thursday, March 3, 2011
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A VERY HAPPY 3rd Birthday to our little Cody bear! He got 2 new toys, 2 new bones, and had a delicious birthday cake! I cant believe he is 3!!!
1 month old!
1 month old already! I can hardly believe it, and then again I can! Its been a long and eventful month! Every day Delaney does something new that amazes me. It excites me that she is learning so much and is so bright and it makes me sad that they really do grow up so fast.. but for me its bittersweet. On one hand I DONT want her to grow up so fast and on the other Im wishing the days away until Shawns home and we are a family again.
The last few weeks have been an emotional rollercoaster for me. With having her, to telling Shawn bye, to learning how to be a mother and get into a routine. Its hard.. Its really dang hard but Im making it and I know that in the end I will appreciate this time and know that Im stronger and the even more capable Marines wife. There will be nothing I cant do.
I think that we are finally into a routine. She really is a good baby. She is very laid back and the only time she is fussy is if Im not holding her which we're getting better at! She just loves to snuggle and I dont mind it one bit! :) Grandma (my Mom) came last weekend. It went by wayyy too fast but was so worth it. Shawns mom is coming sometime within the next few weeks and Cathy comes the 26th for a week! Im so excited! April 4 I start school back. Im ready. I got my graduation letter in the mail too. I cant believe I am so close to finally being finished. LONGEST 7 years of my life. Delaney is going to the base daycare while Im in school and Im gonna take advantage of that and start going back to the gym so I can get my butt in shape before Shawn gets home. Ive lost A LOT of weight but I still have a ways to go before Im back in my prepregnancy jeans.
Delaney got weighed again last week and she is now up to 10 lbs 3 oz and 21.5 inches long! So breastfeeding is going well lol. I honestly did not think I would love it as much as I do or get so attached. This week we started the bottle and I thought that she would at least refuse it at first.. yeah she drank the whole thing and wanted more. And what did I do? I cried my eyes out like a baby. Whatever intention I had of her only drinking pumped milk from the bottle is now out the window. Im going to breastfeed as long as I can and only give her the bottle when Im away from her or we are out and about.
Im worried about her breathing and even brought it up at her 2 week appointment but everyone keeps telling me she is fine. But when Mom came last weekend she even said something about it. She just sounds so rhaspy and at night especially she sounds like she is gasping for air. Sometimes when she eats she chokes and has to catch her breath! I dont know if thats because she is just gulping it down or what but its freaking me out and tricare is being so stupid right now so hopefully I can have her in the doctor next week. She still sleeps in the cradle next to my bed so I can hear her and grab her...
So for some updates:
-She holds her head up all the time now..and just moves it all around to look at her surroundings.
-Shes in 0-3 month & some 3 month clothes & size 1 diapers.
-She FINALLY has a belly button! I didnt think that thing was ever gonna fall off.. so she had her first big girl bath the other day & looved it!
- She has started cooing some and it is soo sweet! BUT yesterday while we were playing I swear she was about to break out into laughter! She was smiling so big and then kinda made this panting sound like she wanted to laugh!
- she definitely found her hands and sucks on those bad boys all day! She wont take a paci though so Im happy its her hands..
Thats all I can really think of. Every day it seems like there is something new.. I feel like if I blink I will miss it all. You cant tell in her pictures but she is her Daddy! Shes got his blue eyes and blonde hair! Im anxious to see if and how it will change over the next few months!
The last few weeks have been an emotional rollercoaster for me. With having her, to telling Shawn bye, to learning how to be a mother and get into a routine. Its hard.. Its really dang hard but Im making it and I know that in the end I will appreciate this time and know that Im stronger and the even more capable Marines wife. There will be nothing I cant do.
I think that we are finally into a routine. She really is a good baby. She is very laid back and the only time she is fussy is if Im not holding her which we're getting better at! She just loves to snuggle and I dont mind it one bit! :) Grandma (my Mom) came last weekend. It went by wayyy too fast but was so worth it. Shawns mom is coming sometime within the next few weeks and Cathy comes the 26th for a week! Im so excited! April 4 I start school back. Im ready. I got my graduation letter in the mail too. I cant believe I am so close to finally being finished. LONGEST 7 years of my life. Delaney is going to the base daycare while Im in school and Im gonna take advantage of that and start going back to the gym so I can get my butt in shape before Shawn gets home. Ive lost A LOT of weight but I still have a ways to go before Im back in my prepregnancy jeans.
Delaney got weighed again last week and she is now up to 10 lbs 3 oz and 21.5 inches long! So breastfeeding is going well lol. I honestly did not think I would love it as much as I do or get so attached. This week we started the bottle and I thought that she would at least refuse it at first.. yeah she drank the whole thing and wanted more. And what did I do? I cried my eyes out like a baby. Whatever intention I had of her only drinking pumped milk from the bottle is now out the window. Im going to breastfeed as long as I can and only give her the bottle when Im away from her or we are out and about.
Im worried about her breathing and even brought it up at her 2 week appointment but everyone keeps telling me she is fine. But when Mom came last weekend she even said something about it. She just sounds so rhaspy and at night especially she sounds like she is gasping for air. Sometimes when she eats she chokes and has to catch her breath! I dont know if thats because she is just gulping it down or what but its freaking me out and tricare is being so stupid right now so hopefully I can have her in the doctor next week. She still sleeps in the cradle next to my bed so I can hear her and grab her...
So for some updates:
-She holds her head up all the time now..and just moves it all around to look at her surroundings.
-Shes in 0-3 month & some 3 month clothes & size 1 diapers.
-She FINALLY has a belly button! I didnt think that thing was ever gonna fall off.. so she had her first big girl bath the other day & looved it!
- She has started cooing some and it is soo sweet! BUT yesterday while we were playing I swear she was about to break out into laughter! She was smiling so big and then kinda made this panting sound like she wanted to laugh!
- she definitely found her hands and sucks on those bad boys all day! She wont take a paci though so Im happy its her hands..
Thats all I can really think of. Every day it seems like there is something new.. I feel like if I blink I will miss it all. You cant tell in her pictures but she is her Daddy! Shes got his blue eyes and blonde hair! Im anxious to see if and how it will change over the next few months!
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